Could I be any fatter?
2005-06-20 @ 7:21 a.m.

I am a fat, fat fuck. In the past month, I've gained 10 pounds. Truthfully, I deserved to gain every ounce of that if not more.
Since I last updated 20 years ago, I've been gaining and losing the same 5 pounds--which is frustrating, but also like whatever. Now that I've added another 5 to the mix, I'm truly scared. It's like an accelerated decent into fatness again and I don't feel like I have the strength to lose again.
So what I'm doing is going back to what worked before...writing in this journal, walking, restricting my calorie intake...

I swear to every higher power that the weight I am today is the highest it will be in my entire lifetime

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